Thank you SO MUCH Antoinette, Wende, Mme. Chez Shoes, and Smitty* for your kind words the other day.
They truly helped me through a bad night. It's just hard to be reminded just how lonely you are, in like the deepest sense. I have a lot of changes to make in my life (things I really wish I could change, like yesterday, though that's not possible) and sometimes things like this can slow me down. Luckily, I also received help through a late night talk with a friend in Miami that helped me stop crying and to get over that hump.
Today is another one of those days for me where everyone I know is busy doing something and I'm just trying to keep myself busy at home and get some things done.
So go out there and celebrate for me and I hope your 4th is full of fun, food, and friends!