Tuesday, October 16, 2007

I Must Not Should Myself...

I must not should myself...

I must not should myself...

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I realized a few weeks ago that every thing on my To-Do list is a should instead of a want.

Sometimes I'm so involved in thinking of all the things I need to get done that I overburden my mind before I can even start and end up paralyzing myself.

No wonder I feel exhausted and overwhelmed even though nothing seems to be getting done.

Just a few highlights of the never ending list:

  • Get a job to sustain myself after 9 months of loan-supported freedom.
  • Get great grades in this semester's Grad school-level class.
  • Learn HTML and CSS in order to update my blogs and to add those skills to my resume.
  • Volunteer for more organizations. (finally made a Habitat for Humanity orientation meeting!)
  • Put up ten birch shelves in the living room.
  • Put up 20 or more pictures on my walls.
  • Make two shirts, 3 dresses, and hem 3 pairs of pants.
  • Paint a table, one armoire, and one bedroom dresser.
  • De-clutter all of my closets and get rid of unneeded items.

The sad thing is a lot of the home items on the list are from last year's list. Every time I remove something from last year's list, I don't feel that it is an accomplishment, it is more often accompanied by a ‘Whew, that’s done, check it off the list, on to the next one!’ I can't seem to enjoy it as something that I actually wanted to do instead of something I HAD to do.

So what is it that I actually WANT?

  1. Make more friends in town.
  2. Obtain a job that challenges me and that I enjoy.
  3. Find time for a man I like and that likes me.
  4. ...oh yeah, finish up my degree. You know, the whole reason I moved back to this city in the first place.


Anonymous said...

I know how you feel. My lists are usually filled with shoulds too. I can't please with that cause i don't know the answer either but I can suggest a book for learning CSS. "Styling with CSS: a designer's guide" by Charles Wyke-Smith ISBN 0321305256. Really clear and easy to follow. Good luck.

lsaspacey said...

Thanks, Rubydarling, I'll check it out!

Katrina said...

Awesome CSS/(X)HTML tutorials and more: http://www.w3schools.com/

Also, thanks for writing about *shoulds*. A lot of times, I find myself struggle with these very issues, as well.